The Most Un-Impressive Christmas

Usually, Christmas and Easter time is the busiest moment for me. I'm belonging to a church choir that's always on duty on Christmas Eve and Holy Saturday. The preparation for the event usually is done since 2-3 months before. 

So, entering December - for example -, I will barely have any chance to take a breathe. Even decorating our Christmas Tree at home will become something that have to be planned carefully when to start. Luckily, the Roman Catholic Church always start to install the Christmas Tree after the 4th week of Advent. My family just follows the tradition and never put up the Christmas Tree earlier than that. So, during the 3 weeks before Christmas, I will fill up my time with intensive choir practices at least twice a week from 8pm till 11pm, hunting for Christmas gifts for The Little One on weekends, shopping for Mom....plus getting sick due to the flu viruses and tiredness.....hehehe...

Last year, my parish council decided to hold only ONE Christmas Eve Mass. They worried about the terrorism threat thats supposed to concentrate their act on our area that time. So, my choir wasn't on duty, but they had been given a chance to sing one song at the Mass Closure.

I could foresee that the only one Christmas Eve Mass would make everything became complicated. The security system made us couldn't park vehicles near the church. Then, I would have to compete with other thousand people to find a good seat, so we could follow the mass nicely. So, finally I decided not to attend the Christmas Eve Mass - for the first time as long as I could remember - , instead I attended the early morning mass.

About three nights before Dec 24, I was at church, waited for picking up The Little One from his Altar Boys practice. While waiting, I sat and watched the committee of Children and Youth community held the prep for the Children Mass. I was feeling a little peculiar....hehehe..usually at the same time, I would be busy practicing with my choir.

After attending the Christmas Morning Mass, I felt something missing. I felt as though I haven't celebrated Christmas at all, as though I just came home from attending another weekly mass. There was no queuing to take picture in front of the Christmas Tree at church. In fact, I took the picture on the last week before it was due to be taken off....hehehe... It was nice, actually, because I didn't have to queue nor wait for everybody to get away from my view....hihihi...

2012: E & R

Finally!!!! This is the year that I've been waiting for....since I heard those ancient prophecies about this year. Personally, I don't really worry about the doomsday that many had predicted. I'm more interested in the Galactic Phenomenon that many believe will happen in the end of this year. If there will happen many natural disasters (earthquakes, flood, hard rain, long dry season, etc.), I believe that those are caused by the phenomenon.

Anyway, I don't want to talk about something that hasn't happened, yet....hihihi... We'll see one event in each day and let's pray that we will have the strength necessary for us to get through to the end of this year and celebrate New Year again.

I saw the record of my writing and found out that last year I published only 11 times.....barely once monthly...hehehe... Many of my materials left in draft state and unfinished. Many more were unwritten, stuck and rotten in my head. So, I failed to gain a goal in my last-year-resolution : WRITING MORE. Will I write more this year? I fervently hope so....hehehe.... I should try to dig deeper into my brain and get those unwritten material out into the air.

Another last-year-resolution: FIND A BUSINESS FOR MY OWN. In the middle of last year, Mom and I had decided to build a home-laundry as a core for a later-on business: boarding house. After got a massive headache in finding a perfect name for all-purposes, finally before Christmas we agreed to one business name. Hopefully, we can formally open the business in this month.

So, I think I will concentrate in those two during this year. I really hope that Life will loan me Its strength to push, and push, and push and make the wheel run throughout this year.

And for the readers all over the world, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! Hope you're as excited as me in welcoming 2012....:-)

Growing Old(er????)

I'm not the person who keeps checking my age. Sometimes, I even have to count how old I am at the moment...hehehe... My family always celebrates the birthday of its member, so I should aware that I'm older each year. Strangely, I never felt that way.

Many times when I looked back to the my school days, I wondered where the difference was. I'm still wearing pants at the most. I still prefer cottons and casual clothes. And I still couldn't keep my make-up to hold on my face more than 3 hours....hahaha...

When I found a white hair on my head several years ago, I wasn't worried at all. Why? Because there's a gene from my father side that makes his children has white hairs even on our young ages....hihihi... Anyway, it becomes a good reason to color our hairs....hihihi...

What makes me realize that I'm almost 40 is my sight. This year, I found out that while wearing my minus 3 glasses, I can't read any bank forms or even newspapers. I have to put down the glasses, then I could read those minuscule sentences clearly. Yikes!!!! My eyes is growing older, faster than my way of life.....hihihi.... So, it's true that we can't beat the nature......I have to hurry my soul to catch up with my physical growth. Why??? Hey, don't you all know that my soul is still in seventeen? hahahahaha......

First of May

I knew this song for the first time when I was studying classical organ as a little girl. I liked it because it's a sweet song and easy to play, of course...hehehe....

When I started to learn English in my secondary years, I thought this song was about a beauty of Spring time. At the time, I couldn't catch the words and I didn't know where to search the lyric.

Once I knew about Google, I searched the lyric and found this below.....

When I was small and Christmas trees were tall

We used to love while others used to play

Don't ask me why, but time has passed us by

Someone else moved in from far away

Now we are tall and Christmas trees are small

And you don't ask the time of day

But you and I, our love will never die

But guess we'll cry come first of May

The apple tree that grew for you and me

I watched the apples falling one by one

And I recall the moment of them all

The day I kissed your cheek and you were gone

Now we are tall and Christmas trees are small

And you don't ask the time of day

But you and I, our love will never die

But guess we'll cry come first of May

When I was small and Christmas trees were tall

Do, do, do, do, do, do, do, do, do

Don't ask me why, but time has passed us by

Someone else moved in from far away

My first reaction???? Where was the first of May? I read again from above....oh, there it was....mentioned only twice.

Next reaction??? Confused......what was the correlation between first of May and those Christmas trees and those apple trees and a love story that ended badly......haizzzzzzz.....spring season should be about sweet things.....the story above made me feeling blue, once I knew about the lyric. And the ending, which was let floated and faded away, made it worse....

But, you know, everytime I hear the song starts, I always can feel the sweetness in it.....the romance in the air....hmmmm....oh, okay...I still love this song by BeeGees....hihihi....

....when I was small, and the Christmas trees were tall, do do do do do do.........

first of may image by zarriel on Photobucket

Thank You Lord

Dear Lord, thank You for my beloved ones. Bless them all, let my warm thoughts and cares protect them, support them in whatever they do, wherever they are....

Dear Lord, thank You for all of my friends and acquaintances, for cheering me up when I'm at the lowest and lonely, for speaking through them when I need most.....

Dear Lord, thank You for the unknown people and things you send along whenever I need an inspiration or a reminder......

Dear Lord, thank You for all of the time you granted me for having fun, even when I didn't deserved it at all.....

Dear Lord, thank You for all the time of troubles you presented to me, making me appreciate the little nice things I have in my hands.....

Dear Lord, thank You for the angel to watch over me, protecting me from a hard fall by sending those alarms into my conscience....

Dear Lord, thank You for catching me when I fall, turn on the light when I get lost, even before I ask for help....

Dear Lord, thank You for all of those nights when I could leave all of my troubles behind and dream all of the sweet things....

Dear Lord, thank You for each of the days I spend to solve most of my troubles, make me realize of my strength, make me grow wiser and wiser...

 

Thank you, Lord, for all you've done for me.......
(My personal novena, as written for my FB status before my birthday. I'm now 17 going on 39....hihihi....)