Breakaway

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window

Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me

Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray
I could breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean

Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away
And breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes 'til I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging 'round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

I love this soundtrack of "Princess Diary 2" since the first I heard last year. The song was so fit in with my feelings at the time. There I was, felt so trapped in a very stalled situation. Every where I looked at, I only saw a very tall and thick wall. Each night I wished that next morning would grant me an opening that allowed me to get away from the suffocating condition.

One day, when I expected less....there it was.....the door opened. Gingerly, I spread my wings, prepared to fly away. But I found the sun was so blinded into my eyes. The heat burnt my skin. Okay, I thought to myself, be patient.....this would happened to everyone, I just have to hang on and everything would be alright in time......

But the time went by...... the heat kept burnt through my skin, deeper and deeper. I felt my wings torn, and still I couldn't see through the blinded sun.... I got scared.... I slowed down.....thought everything over again.....reconsidered my option.....

And here I am now......back to the original place, surrounded by the tall wall, but hopefully not too thick. I've seen the outside world. And I know what's the best I should do in the future. I just hope that I will have the strength I need to reach that option. In the mean time, I'll just sing along with Kelly Clarkson and dream away......

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly

Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway


Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

Blue Jasmine: My Namesake

I barely use my real name in surfing the cyberworld. My most reason is, so I could express myself more freely. Only a few people know the real name behind my ID. But, then that few people are my long time friend, the ones I also know in real world.

After changing name for a few years, I settled with Blue Jasmine as my ID. What kind of name is that? Is it because I'm working in a flower world? That's a couple of common question from my acquaintances.

Actually, I never knew there was really a flower called Blue Jasmine. I just combined the two words. Blue is my favourite colour. Jasmine is my favourite flower. And that combination sounded so romantic in my ears....hahahaha...

Then, later I found a novel in a thrift store. The title was Blue Jasmine, written by Violet Winspear. OMG!!!! There IS a flower called Blue Jasmine!!!! And....ehem....it's quite a romantic story, that novel....hehehehe....

Immediately, I searched for any picture of Blue Jasmine, but couldn't find the clear and good one at that time. And that's why I used a Blue Rose as my icon.....hehehe....

Tonight, I finally found a very pretty picture of Blue Jasmine. And starting from now, I'll use the new picture as my icon. Thank you for any person at www.eyefetch.com who had uploaded the nice and beautiful photo of the pretty flower!

"Enthusiasm" Giveaway Contest

A week ago, a long time friend of mine who now lives in USA sent me an invitation to celebrate the launching of her first novel. As I was in a very low mood to write (does anyone notice that I barely write anything since last month? hihihi....), the first time I caught the condition to write at least three paragraphs about my reasons participating in the contest had already dampen my interest...hihihi.... Until the day when the author personally wrote to me about it......

Mbak Fida - that's how I call her - was once my colleague in the company where I'm working now. Ever since her move to USA, I've often been amazed with her progress. From creating a pretty garden around her family house, actively managing her personal blog, and now developing her skills in creative writing!! As far as I know, this novel is her third published writing, the e-book about prayers she taught to her daughter, then the second one about dancing, then a cookbook....ouch, that means this newest is her fourth....hihihi...sorry, Mbak.... Okay, don't ask me more details about that e-books of her, as I don't own any.....hihihi...just visit the abbottsbooks online store.

Okay, now about her newest publishing, "Enthusiasm"... I read the synopsis on http://www.fidaabbott.com/ (wow, Mbak!!! You now even got a website of your own!!!). It reminded me about her view in taking French Course when she still lived in Surabaya - Indonesia. So different from me, who took the course just for fun and broaden my knowledge. Mbak Fida took the course so seriously. She really practiced the language, even in conversation with her classmates. She said that she always took every course seriously, so she could make a living from it someday when she needed it. Always gives her best in doing something...that's the enthusiasm in Mbak Fida. Now, I really want to know how that big spirit in her had helped her in making a new life, away from home and her origin country. Different culture and way of living....added to the necessity of 24 hours talking in English....hahaha....scary thought...hehehe...! This kind of story would make a very long time chatting...hehehe... So, this way - read her book - would be preferable....so, I could read it in stages, and maybe skip one or two pages, or even chapters....hehehe...

What? I need three reasons to participate in this contest? Ouch! Those three paragaph wasn't enough? Oh, okay.... One more.... Hmmmm, what's the third reason makes me write this particular subject? Oh, yeah.....so I could get the first edition newest book of Ms. Fida Abbott FREE OF CHARGE!!! hehehe....everything free is so nice, isn't it? hehehe...

Now, that I had given the three reason why I want to participate in this contest, I would like to complain about the next rule of the contest. The winner(s) have to write a review about the book? The winner(s) have to participate in the next contest(s)? Yikes, Mbak!!!! I hope you will provide quite a long time to submit a review, if I'm the winner....hahaha....I couldn't guarantee to read a book ASAP....hahaha...it would depend on my mood.....hehehe...

So, anyone interested in reading more about the nice blog of this nice friend of mine could visit this link http://www.fidaabbott.blogspot.com/.

If you want to know more about the book of "Enthusiasm", you may visit http://www.fidaabbott.com/ or her online store http://www.abbottsbooks.com/

Once again, congratulation, Mbak Fida! Wish you success with your new book!!