"Enthusiasm" Giveaway Contest

A week ago, a long time friend of mine who now lives in USA sent me an invitation to celebrate the launching of her first novel. As I was in a very low mood to write (does anyone notice that I barely write anything since last month? hihihi....), the first time I caught the condition to write at least three paragraphs about my reasons participating in the contest had already dampen my interest...hihihi.... Until the day when the author personally wrote to me about it......

Mbak Fida - that's how I call her - was once my colleague in the company where I'm working now. Ever since her move to USA, I've often been amazed with her progress. From creating a pretty garden around her family house, actively managing her personal blog, and now developing her skills in creative writing!! As far as I know, this novel is her third published writing, the e-book about prayers she taught to her daughter, then the second one about dancing, then a cookbook....ouch, that means this newest is her fourth....hihihi...sorry, Mbak.... Okay, don't ask me more details about that e-books of her, as I don't own any.....hihihi...just visit the abbottsbooks online store.

Okay, now about her newest publishing, "Enthusiasm"... I read the synopsis on http://www.fidaabbott.com/ (wow, Mbak!!! You now even got a website of your own!!!). It reminded me about her view in taking French Course when she still lived in Surabaya - Indonesia. So different from me, who took the course just for fun and broaden my knowledge. Mbak Fida took the course so seriously. She really practiced the language, even in conversation with her classmates. She said that she always took every course seriously, so she could make a living from it someday when she needed it. Always gives her best in doing something...that's the enthusiasm in Mbak Fida. Now, I really want to know how that big spirit in her had helped her in making a new life, away from home and her origin country. Different culture and way of living....added to the necessity of 24 hours talking in English....hahaha....scary thought...hehehe...! This kind of story would make a very long time chatting...hehehe... So, this way - read her book - would be preferable....so, I could read it in stages, and maybe skip one or two pages, or even chapters....hehehe...

What? I need three reasons to participate in this contest? Ouch! Those three paragaph wasn't enough? Oh, okay.... One more.... Hmmmm, what's the third reason makes me write this particular subject? Oh, yeah.....so I could get the first edition newest book of Ms. Fida Abbott FREE OF CHARGE!!! hehehe....everything free is so nice, isn't it? hehehe...

Now, that I had given the three reason why I want to participate in this contest, I would like to complain about the next rule of the contest. The winner(s) have to write a review about the book? The winner(s) have to participate in the next contest(s)? Yikes, Mbak!!!! I hope you will provide quite a long time to submit a review, if I'm the winner....hahaha....I couldn't guarantee to read a book ASAP....hahaha...it would depend on my mood.....hehehe...

So, anyone interested in reading more about the nice blog of this nice friend of mine could visit this link http://www.fidaabbott.blogspot.com/.

If you want to know more about the book of "Enthusiasm", you may visit http://www.fidaabbott.com/ or her online store http://www.abbottsbooks.com/

Once again, congratulation, Mbak Fida! Wish you success with your new book!!

Magic Cubes

I have been knowing about this particular game for a very long time....maybe in my senior high school years. This is one of the game I don't enjoy, just because I couldn't understand how to finish it completely...hehehe... The most I could get is a same color only in ONE side, and that's after getting headache in twisting and twisting the cube for what it seems an eternity....hahaha...

Once, I listened to a friend explaining the rules to finish it. She showed us how to play it. Sadly, after two sentences, I couldn't grasp what she meant....hahaha.... I missed the rest of her explanation in a buff.....hahaha....! All I could understood was twisted to here, than twisted back to the original place.

Okay, I thought, so the rule of the game was theoritically simple. You just have to figure out which box you want to move where, and rotate the line till you get to the right position. But you also must not forget how many moves you have done to take the line back into the original position. And THAT what's so difficult for me.....after two moves, I couldn't remember what I had done!!!! I couldn't re-trace my step....hehehe.... And that's only to finish on one side. When I move to work on another side, all of my hard work before become undone again....hehehe...made me very frustated!!! Okay, I give up!!! I have no brain for this kind of game!!!

Do you???

The Twilight on Sundays

......."It's the safest time of day for us," he said, answering the unspoken question in my eyes. "The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way… the end of another day, the return of the night......

(Twilight, Stephenie Meyer)

The moment I hate most is Sunday evenings. It is the time when I feel most lonely, so blue, so melancholic. Especially, when I have nothing to do and have to stay at home.

That's why, whenever I could, I would manage to go out and spend the day outside, preferably browsing malls....hehehehe... Still, I prefer not to be home too late. Otherwise, I would be so tired out and it wouldn't be good for my performance on Monday morning. Then, I would be in two consecutively bad days.....hahahaha....

But sometimes, I feel so lazy to go out. And that's when I have to face the worst moment in a week. The sign of the end of the week and the beginning of another unpredictable week. What would I do to handle it? Reading a book...preferably the one which could give me an excuse to cry and release my blue mood. Online and chatting with friends, if I would be so lucky.... Blogging, if I have an urge to write and share my view. Or, watching a good movie on television...which is so rarely happened....hehehehe...

Wow, it's 8.25pm now! The time finally passed by.......

Good bye, Sunday evening.....now, I'm ready to embrace the night and fallen asleep!

My Angel Name

Recently, while I was browsing my Facebook account, my eyes got caught at the application namely Angel Name Generator. I love this name generator and had played several times before. Since I was curious what my angel name would be, I played the generator. And the result was........NATHANIEL The Angel of Fire.

The first time I saw the name, all I could thought was: "Huh?????"....hahahaha.....I didn't know any angel named Nathaniel. And it made me more curious. So, I googled the name and found two websites that gave a clear description about Nathaniel.

According to Worldwide Mediums and Psychics, Angel of Fire Nathaniel means "gift of God". He is lord over the element of fire, a powerful gift from God. He is constantly watching for spiritual fires of aspiration rising from earth. He transfers the fire aspect of divinity to our world where it transforms consciousness from the limited self to the eternal self by burning away misconceptions that would have us believe that we are separate from God.

Okay, I couldn't understand 100% what those words above meant...hehehe... Then I searched through google once again, and found this interesting blog...

Actually, the article in the blog was about an oracle card, which called Angel Nathaniel. I quoted a part that drew my attention:

.......... When this card comes to us it means that Angel Nathaniel is guiding us to call upon him so that he can bring these divine flames to whatever is limiting us as an obstacle at the moment. When one is being cleansed of something, it tends to show up in the forms of:

• becoming super aware of what needs to be changed in life, what action needs to be taken in order to produce forward movement,
• the sudden desire to withdraw from interactions and beliefs that tend to limit our power instead of helping us to embrace it,
• the desire to become clear about what needs to be organized within our lives so that we can create a deeper sense of focus, concentration, and the understanding of what our true goals are.

Angel Nathaniel also brings the awareness of healthy limitation as fire can be a symbol of energy that needs to be used with caution, respect, and boundries.

When I read and tried to absorbe the meaning of those sentences above, I suddenly remembered about my previous writing about the confused feeling in me. And I was a little shocked when realized that somehow there was a connection between these two. It was like someone offered me an answer to the heaviness in me. So surprised, that I checked and played the name generator three times already! And the results were always the same....Nathaniel the Angel of Fire. I started to think that this particular angel is sent as my guardian angel...hehehe.....

So, in the end I read these pray below, to ask Angel Nathaniel to come into my heavy thoughts for a mini angel treatment:

Angel Nathaniel, we welcome you into our sacred energy and space for the healing and restoration of our divine passions.
Where there was heaviness, fear, and emotional wounds, let your divine fires cleanse away the heavy energies of our spirit so that light, confidence, love, wholeness, and passion for living can surface.
Thank you for the divine assistance and I look forward to seeing how this angelic purification manifests in my world....................

Confusion

There have been so many things happened during these three months in my life. In one part, it was as though God granted me what I wished for so long at the exact time when I really needed a way out. In another, it had also pushed me into a fast lane that made me have to jump forward without stop and think for a moment.

When the time standstilled for a while, suddenly I found myself in no-man's land. Sure, the new environment made a space for me, but I couldn't fit in without getting crushed. And I refused to be crushed, not when the old place kept calling me to be back to them. I reasoned that since so many changes has been happened on me, at least I had to have something solid in which I could bury myself if there would be something bad happened in the other aspects of my life. So, okay, before the time started to roll me under again, I jumped out and responded to the old place. And what I found?

After won my sympathy and made me jump back to them, the old place made me waiting for another week to start. And now I'm spending my extra holiday by wondering what it all means? Making me once again having second thought about my decision, whether I'd better stop here or walk away again. Whether it is the right decision or not. It even had made me couldn't concentrate at the evening mass last night. Well, not just this problem...there was also another thing bothering my mind, but it's another story..hehehe...

In the middle of thick cloud surrounding my mind, I heard the voice of my Priest gave sermon about choices and consequences. That every step we take will have its own consequence(s). That we shouldn't worry, because no matter what, God will help us anytime we ask and need. Actually, I had read something similar one day before, when every confusions started to arise inside my mind. But it couldn't stop me worrying and thinking.

At this time, I'm sort of giving my confusion in God's hand. Yes, I'm still worrying...it is after all a part of my caracter - the need to be sure of where I belong to. But I also realised that I had made a choice, no matter which direction it was. That I had to make a best of it. That I have to believe that everything is happened for a reason. That God won't give me more than I could handle. I just wish I will be strong enough to face it.........