Let's give awards for......

On this Kartini's Day, let's give awards for these special people :

1. Women who could combine her career with her passion in managing the household perfectly in harmony without complaining whatsoever.
2. Parents who always encouraged their daughter(s) to reach the star of their dreams, but would never disappointed if in the end she would prefer to follow her sweetheart to the end of the world.
3. Husbands who always support their wife in exploring her talenta and willingly take over the household management in doing so.

Relationship Status: Complicated

During several years of hanging around in cyberworld, I always wondered why there was an option of complicated in stating one's relationship status. What would one actually want to say with stating he/she is in a complicated relationship?

Does that mean you have a spouse but not live together anymore? Nope, it's called separated.
Or you want to say that you have someone special but still not married? Nope, it would be more appropriate to be called committed.

I am always suspicious towards people with complicated relationship. The word "complicated" make me think that he/she is hiding something, from new acquaintances and from family/old friends. That he/she tries to cheat his/her spouse/beloved and prepare to have fun with other woman/man.

I know that I am very prejudiced....judging others badly. I always try to see the other way, stop myself in making negative judgement. Sadly, recently I found that my suspicious above hit a stone. Oh, how sick is the world! And this person dared to call me a prude!

A prude (Old French prude)[1] is a person who is described as being overly concerned with decorum or propriety. They may be perceived as being uncomfortable with sexuality, nudity, alcohol, drug use or mischief.
The name is generally considered to mean excessive modesty, and hence unflattering, and is often used as an insult. A person who is considered a prude may have reservations about nudity, participating in romantic or sexual activity, drinking alcohol or consuming other drugs, or participating in mischief. These reservations may stem from shyness or strict moral beliefs. Actions or beliefs that may cause someone to be labeled a prude include advocating or practising abstinence, advocating prohibition, advocating censorship of sexuality or nudity in media, disapproval of being topless in public, avoiding or condemning public display of affection, or exhibiting unusual levels of discomfort with sexuality, alcohol, drugs, or mischief.

Stations of Cross

There is always an advice from my church at this time of year, to attend at least once The Stations of Cross in preparing oneself to enter the Easter Celebration. And each year it has become a tough battle for me to follow the good advice.

I could come up with many kind of reasons that prevents me to attend The Stations of Cross. The usual and prime reason is tiredness. This event is always held on Friday-evenings since Ash Wednesday till Palm Sunday. And since it's also the last working day in each week, I always feel drained of energy and reluctant to go out again.

Today is Friday, and it's a holiday. One should assume that there's no reason at all for me not to attend it. Believe me, so I thought! A week ago I saw this holiday and thought...hey, I could go to The Stations of Cross next Friday! Then, several friends from the youth church choir concocted an attentive plan to go and visit our ex-vocal-couch. Eventually the plan fell through because of a transportation difficulty. So, I spent the day shopping and rest well, getting ready to go to the church.

An hour and half before the designated time, I went out from bathroom to find a very dark sky and a moment later it rained heavily. Then, I found out that Mom would go to a prayer meeting. There! Suddenly I found two big reasons enough to dampen down my enthusiasm. Furthermore, I couldn't ask a lift from my brother, because he had to go to his band practice for their performance this Sunday.

Oh well....there it is.....I wish God will still be willing to give me another chance to become a better person next time, again and again....! :)

The Tree of Knowledge

How dangerous the Tree of Knowledge is?

I have this little game in my PC called BounceOut or PoingPoing. The rule is simple, one has to line three or more balls with same colours to eliminate them until the number is up. The catch is the time limit. The higher your level, the higher is the number of the balls to go and it'd become more difficult to find the balls with same colours to line up. You just become more panic as the time go on until....boommm......it explodes and the game is over.

I love playing this game whenever I get bored in the office (pssssttt....don't tell my boss!!!). I could tell how high the level of my concentrating mind from how fast I find the balls to go. For a long time I'm never tempted to cheat the game, even though many times I get frustated in failing to find only three balls to go to finish a level. I found this a continuing new challenges everytime.

One day, when I almost gave up in finding the same colour balls to go, I accidentally pressed the little button named Panic in the bottom of playing field. Suddenly the balls moved and...there, the balls found themselves their companion and I could move again. A lamp lighted up inside my brain......"So, this is a little cheat to help players, and I never knew although I've seen this little button from the beginning!" Yup....I took a fruit from the tree of knowledge and ate it. And the little game was never the same again. The challenge is still there, but I know now that there is a little help waiting in the wings.

It's only a game, it would never harm other people nor any other living creature. Imagine if it happened to serious things like technology or even law.


Passage Genesis 2:17
But of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil and blessing and calamity you shall not eat, for in the day that you eat of it you shall surely die.

Big, brave steps in starting my journey in 2008

The first big step was changing my phone number. I had kept the old one since first using a cellphone. My sister gave it along with the cellphone, because she wanted to buy a new one. I have three times changed my cellphone ever since, but never the number. Too much trouble, that's what I thought.

But in this last 3 years I had some bad, painful experiences that I just want to close the chapter and throw away all of the things that would remind me of them. Get a new number is one of them. Yes, it makes a little trouble in telling my new number to many friends I have and wish to keep contact with. But, I do hope the bravery in changing my number will inspire myself to dare anything else, out of this comforting box I have hold on for so long.

The second big step was celebrating new year eve with friends out of home. Usually, I spent the event at home, watching television which always perform good programs and films. This time I decided to join my brother and several friends from the youth church choir at an italian pizza parlour, dining, singing, having a good time together. This maybe one of our last times to get together, because there would be much changing in 2008 that would make us go to different ways. It was a big step because it has cost me much money than usual! All just for celebrating new year's eve!

The newest brave step is happened this afternoon. I bought the latest and the last book of Harry Potter series. Brave, because I bought it despite of the usual logical thinking in saving my money as much as I could. Not to mention that actually I've broken before this month even ended its first week. But, I've promised myself to get the book as a christmas present for myself, and I did hold on as long as possible, waiting till there is a discount price for the book. And the moment is now....so I bought it this afternoon and got 20% off the normal price!!