Enjoying My Solitude

During this month, May 2011, my schedule is mostly full, from Monday till Sunday. Each year on May, my city - Surabaya - is held a big event to celebrate its anniversary. It's called Surabaya Shopping Festival. It is a moment where we could buy things with a nice, big discount. It is also a good moment to see many promotions and exhibitions.

This year, I had a plan to use each weekend on May to shop and replenish the wardrobe of my little one. He became bigger so fast lately, that barely any of his gears fit in him. And there was also a suit of black trousers and white shirt he would need for his First Communion sacrament next month. Then, there was a wedding invitation from the brother of my good friend. And the monthly shopping, my routine 'beauty treatment'. Then, I needed to browse some softwares for my work...... For all of those plans, I only had FIVE weekends....so crowded and would be tiring so much, when I was seeing it at the beginning of May.

So, I organized every step I would had carefully to preserve my energy and health (at the time, I still had some illness leftover from the Easter week). I made a limit only visiting one place (read: mall) each times, and made sure that I still had enough time to rest every weekend.

Then, on the fourth Friday of May I had a nice surprise. My little one was scheduled to do a social activity with his Sunday School on Sunday morning till in the afternoon. Then, Mom announced that she was asked to go with the other members of our church committee for a weekend retreat. I did some calculate and found out that I would have a whole Sunday morning on my own....hmmmm....

So, there was I.... After a busy morning, preparing breakfast and washing clothes, I delivered the little one to his appointment and went back to an empty and silent home. Felt lonely? On the contrary!!! I felt soooooo relax for the first time during the month. I could feel that the time was slow down. No noise from TV or radio, which usually is turned on by Mom and the little one. I could play my online-game freely (because as a rule, I don't allow the little one play any games on computer....hehehe....). I was alone, but I didn't feel lonely.... I was just enjoying my solitude.

Solitude is the state of being alone without being lonely. It is a positive and constructive state of engagement with oneself. Solitude is desirable, a state of being alone where you provide yourself wonderful and sufficient company.

 

Full Moon

I always imagine a night under a full moon as a romantic moment. There would I be, sitting beside my loved one at the porch....the darkness of night surrounds us, only the bright yellow of the moon light on the landscape ahead....while we would be talking quietly, peacefully and enjoying the moment as though we're the only one who're still up at that night.

But the reality is a far different story. Mostly, I feel so blue and sad during the full moon period. Either it's because I would be just home tiredly from a tough choir practice, or because I would just recover from an illness. Strange, isn't it? hehehe... Or maybe I only realize that it's full moon when I'm alone....hahaha...

Hmmmm.....I think I have to concentrate to look for that loved one first...hahaha... Someone who's willing to sit and talk under a full moon without change into a werewolf or a vampire....hahahaha.. Oh, right, unless it's Edward Cullens...it will be okay then...hahahaha... 

Shopping Spree (3): A Great Regret

This is the hardest thing for me to write about. I still feel the remorse. This is the rare moment when I wish that I could turn back the time and change my option......

For several years, I had spent my money to be able to buy a newest laptop with a big specification fit for design purposes. Of course, I also waited for the decreasing of laptop's price, which did happen each year....hehehe... I did have a laptop in my hands, the early generation of M-Pentium of Compaq Presario that needed a memory upgrading for design purposes, but was still very okay to office works and chatting. And this is the source of my deep regret for this last and biggest shopping spree.

Last year, I found out that I had saved enough money to make my dreams come true.....yes, dreams....not just one.... And so I went and bought some new wardrobe (no, I didn't and won't write about this...hihihi...), a new printer, a new cellphone.....and..... 

One day at the end of February, I went to a hightech mall to visit a computer expo there. I didn't have any purposes but just browsed. Then, my eyes and interests was caught on a Lenovo product. The price is quite nice with a quite high specification, higher than average. But still, its memory wasn't as high as I wanted. Realized what I looked for, the sales person offered me an alternative. The harddisk capacity was lower, but its memory was four times higher than the Lenovo.....and the price was lower.... Whaaammm....I had the money, I saw my dream in front of me.....and I became blinded.....

Back at home, after some hours later, I kind of woke up from a dream and started to re-trace my step. I realized that my need of a new laptop wasn't that urgent. That I preferred to have ready fund in my bank, rather than good and shiny things in my hands. That buying this laptop made me had to re-consider my other plans, such as family vacations.

But what is done had done. Now, I have a new laptop......at least, I had a dream come true....hehehe.... I have to use this laptop as I planned to....install some designing software and get started......first, a plan for my own house make-over. And I've been also re-starting saving hard....to fulfill my other dreams.... Hopefully, I will be able to achieve that in the next two years.......

Me? Stylish? Wow....

A couple of days ago, I got an email from a long-time friend of mine, I'm used to call her Mbak Fida. She presented an award for my amateur writing : STYLISH BLOGGER AWARD

Stylish? Me? Gee...thank you so much, Mbak! It is always so nice to be appreciated....:-).

This year, I've been trying to increase my writing frequency. I have a final part of material that still need a huge courage from myself to write and share it to others. Also, I've been concentrating in re-arranging the outlook of my page. For the last one, I asked my brother to help me out, because I couldn't understand this machine language....hahaha... So, if anyone notice a sudden change on my page, it's not ME!!! hehehe...

Back to the award, there's some rules in receiving this award :

Thank and link back the person who gave you this award.
Share 7 things about yourself.
Award at least 5 great bloggers you know.
Contact those bloggers and tell them about the award.

First rule...easy and already done it!

Second rule......7 things about myself? Yikes...... Okay, let's see...

One, don't like to talk about myself.....unless someone asks, then I could never stop chatter....hihihi...

Two, don't like white colour...so don't dream seeing me wearing white as a bride....hehehe...

Three, a homebody....means a person who prefers stay at home at spare-times.....me, more preferably sleeping...hehehe...

Four, like to have a plan and timetable....it doesn't matter whether the plan could be done or not afterwards

Five, prefer to watch a movie at TV rather than at cinema or DVD......never see a new movie? doesn't matter...hehehe...

Six, prefer to read the book rather than the movie version

Seven, drink soda to cheer myself up.....of course, after that I will suffer from gastroenteritis...hahaha....

Next rule.....I am presenting this award to Stardust, Dominick,......who else? Yikes, I couldn't find anyone else but Mbak Fida.....hehehe.... Does it mean that I'm not eligible to receive this award, huh? hiks.....you've read those 7 things about myself....huaaaaaaaaaa....

To my friends above, grab this award below as fast as you could, before someone take it from my page.....

 

Shopping Spree (2): Printer

For a very long time, I hadn't had any printer at home. Only a laptop. Well, I did have one before. It was a very ancient Canon BJ-200 which came altogether with my first PC. When I changed my PC with a laptop and a much higher system, the printer system couldn't keep up with it. So, I gave it to my brother when he asked for it. I didn't buy any replacement, because :

1. I rarely needed to print anything at home. If I did need to print something, it wasn't so urgent, that I could do it from my office instead
2. I had a plan to replace the laptop with a brand new one, and at the time purchasing a new laptop will get a printer as well.   

 

I changed my mind lately, because my little one needed to have a printer ready at home for his homework more and more. Sometimes, he would need it for the next day, so I won't have any time to do it at work. Furthermore, the printers I have at work are very moody.....they would act badly whenever I need to print things urgently....hehehe...

I went to a high-tech mall and browsed some printer stores. I was looking for any modified printer, so I could refill the inks easily without have to change its cartridges. Actually, I was quite attracted with a new product of Epson which has the modified system I wanted. Of course, this is a legal modifying. Too bad, the price is still too high for me....hehehe... So, regretfully I chose an Epson T-13 printer modified by an independent store.... 

Hmmmm, maybe I'll recommend the new product of Epson when my boss give me a permission to buy a new printer....hehehe....