My Christmas Wish

I couldn't remember when was the last time I made any wishes at Christmas time. Christmas wishes are for children, first of all. Then, for years, I have spent weeks before Christmas preparing for the church choir. So, at Christmas Eve, I always focused on the Mass and after that I was so busy with family gatherings. That's why I was rather startled when a friend asked what my wish was this year.

I did a quick assessment about what I had thought and wanted to do next year. Then I gave this answer to my friend..... I wish for some lights......

Yes, lights.....like lamp or candle....things that allow you to see things around you.

Last year, I found out that I would never again fit to work for other people. The present job I got is the nearest thing to my preference, because it allows me so much independence in organizing my tasks without have to answer to many people. But during this year I also found that I really had to start my own business, so I will have a bigger independence in managing my working time to fit in with my family needs. I had had some discussion with my family and friends about it. The most difficult thing is to find out and decide what kind of business I want to build.

As a starter, I need a business that I could run by myself. I don't think I could give any commands to other people and supervise his work....hehehe....my long time of professional working told me that.....

Then, I need to find some business that won't tie me in any certain place and working time. A little boy in my care and Mom are the two most important persons in my life now, and I prefer to be there whenever they need me, or whenever I think they need me.

I also need to find a business that I like to do for hours and days. I am afraid that I don't have a strong ambition. So, I really hope that my liking towards what I do will help me to hang on.

I really hope that I could make a first step to build my own business next year. And till this day, I still couldn't decide what I want to build. That's why I need some lights, to help me to see clearly. Maybe the signs have already been there, and I need a stronger beam for my eyes to see it.....hihihi....reminded me of a funny movie titled BRUCE ALMIGHTY..... No, seriously.....I really need the lights.... And I hope God will be willing to grant me this, as He has generously granted my other wishes these past years. Amen.

(*) dedicated for Mr. Shoes who had reminded me of Christmas wishes and magic

HARPITNAS

I've been trying to search the English term for that title above, but no result. I guess this term only exists in Indonesian....hehehe...

HARPITNAS, the shortened form of Hari Kecepit Nasional, is the favourite term of Indonesian people - especially the workers - to describe one working day sandwiched between two holiday. For example, if Friday is a holiday, then for most of Indonesian workers who work 6 days a week, Saturday is HARPITNAS, because the next day, Sunday, is a holiday again.

Yesterday, Monday, Dec 6, was a big HARPITNAS for me. I had been off-duty since Friday. No, it wasn't a public holiday. I took a leave on that day to help Mom cleaning the house from the water that flooded into the first floor of our house during the night before. The rain was very hard, so the flood was quite high that could come inside my high-placed house.

Then, came Saturday which was my official off-duty day. Next, Sunday....which is a public holiday. Three holidays.....

After that, came Monday....yesterday, which I saw with a gloomy mood...hahaha... I wished I could take a day-off, too, that day....since the next day - today - is a holiday again. Imagine, 5 days in holidays!!! What a nice wish!

But I couldn't do that, my too-conscientious-mind couldn't allow that....hehehe... First of all, there are many regular things to be done on Mondays. Then, I also expected a huge backlog of works, because I was off since Friday. And it was all happened! Once I came into my workspace, I saw several notes on my desk, waiting for my attention which actually was left at home and still enjoying the holiday....hahaha... So, I had to push myself very hard to finish all of my duties and tried not to look at the clock most of the time....hehehe....

It worked...maybe too much...because at the end of day, I was so dizzy and suffered a huge a headache. Thank God for another chance to sleep till late in the morning today.....hahaha...

And now....it is Tuesday night, but it feels like Sunday night...yikes!!!! Thankfully, there would be only 4 days before next Sunday, instead the usual 6 days....hahaha.... That's the good side of HARPITNAS....hehehe....